December 2010
New Years is just another day...
Because I drink and pop pills everyday anyway to numb the brain. These habits I hate like the misery that infects my mind-state. Give so much but rarely gain, drinking away while sitting in pain. Hope for better days and life to change.
Try to distract myself 24/7.
“Misery is almost always the result of thinking.”
It’s hard for me to maintain god. Thinking suicide beside the tracks near the train yard.
Deeper thinker creating pictures, liquor sipper, Melbourne Bitter, prescription mixer, powder sniffer, self injure, see no image in the mirror, 24 hour bottle shop outside of Windsor, cirrhosis awaits my liver, violence like Jack The Ripper, amphetamine keeps me thinner, secrets between me and your sister, devil bids, just a sinner.
MY CAMERA IS FUCKING UP! WACK!
Hard times.
In my life there’s never been a positive without negative slashing positives face with a razor to balance the opposite. Happened again just then.
Don’t ask me where I’ve been. Way down. Years of love, tears of blood, beers and drugs. Don’t ask me how I gained strength and motivation.
There’s a girl who makes me see brighter days ahead of me.
Lads.
Cops target you and real writers despise you.
